2012, on hindsight

I began this year an engaged woman. haha. And what a journey it has been, and still is. We got to know each other with the knowledge that we were looking to settle down and Alhamdulillah (for it is a blessing regardless of what I feel at the moment) we've come this far. We've known each other for slightly more than 3 years, been together for less than that, been engaged for a year... And a few months more, I would be undertaking a new portfolio.. Only He knows my prayers.

I also started the year hung over from the beauty I witnessed in faraway lands. I left my heart in Morocco. And I pray for another chance to witness His magnificence there and elsewhere. But Alhamdulillah, what an experience it was.

Once the year started, work was a whirlwind. Busy year, new profile of children, wonderful friends. Within the first few wks we had camp.. and yeah.. it was non-stop hits after that. Alhamdulillah for the experience. NauzubIllah, may He protect me and the children form any ill effects of my teaching. In Shaa Allah, He will protect and guide them where I was lacking.

I sang at a book launch. It's my love that tortures me. Part guilt. Part excitement. But teaching's taking away the magic.

2 of my cousins got engaged Alhamdulillah. Newsie. Manis. :) The '85's. I love us.

This year, my furry babies were born. I lost 1. May He allow me to meet my little smally. I'm sorry I failed you little one. Forgive me Ya Raab. But I still have 4 more. Theyre growing up fast and I can't be any prouder of my beautiful babies. I saw them being brought into this world. It wasn't east for mommy either. The love and care my princess put into raising her babies, I pray I'll find that instinct when my turn comes. Shukur for having them. I don't know how I'll react when they have to leave. :(

I'm thankful for my family. We ended last year and welcomed this with one which is complete. 10 years we endured and made do. Now we're whole again and I give thanks for You for putting us on this journey for I feel it made us stronger. My other family members, the ones who complete us. My cousins who I'm thankful for coz they too are my friends. Alhamdulillah. I cannot imagine how it would be without them. We welcomed Mumu into our clan and we're thankful for the happiness he brings us, for the example that his parents set for the rest of us. Bless my family Ya Raab. For they have sheltered me when I was in need. They deserve Your protection and love.

My friends. I've learnt that for those we welcome, some we need to let go. I pray they'll continue serving as my inspiration and good examples while we are able to rub shoulders for this short short time.

The sun replaces the moon in cycles, until the day He wills it not to be. I'm thankful for the yesterdays, look forward to the tomorrows and pray that whatever comes next, I be empowered with all the strength He feels fit to gift to me.